I cant stop thinking about Karofsky. There are people that are really going through what he went through, every single day. The mental process he went through… deciding how he would do it, putting on a suit and dress shoes, testing out his belt… seeing him do this broke my heart because I felt his pain. Max Adler portrayed these emotions so deeply that I could literally feel my heart breaking for Dave’s character. It was so real. And maybe the most moving bit of all, however short it was, was the quick shot of Karofsky’s father finding him hanging there in his closet, crying over his son’s lifeless body, begging for help. This storyline drastically changed Dave’s character for me, because I can relate to it. Regardless of whether or not it was because he was bullied, someone I knew took his own life by hanging himself, too. Watching the Cough Syrup scene, all I could see was Adam doing exactly as Karofsky was, going back and forth in his mind, wondering if this was really his only option. It breaks my heart. Dave’s father finding him there… all I saw was Brad finding Adam in his garage, but for him it being too late. I wish Adam could’ve had someone like Kurt to tell him to picture his life ten years from now. See how happy you’ll be when you can get out of Lima, or Richmond Hill, and never look back. It really would have gotten better. Tonight’s Glee was no-doubt very triggering for many of its viewers, myself included, but I think On My Way was an episode containing story lines that needed to be explored. Glee prides itself on tackling the major issues surrounded adolescence and the high school years, something that can’t be done while avoiding the inevitable topic of suicide. No, it wasn’t pleasant to watch, especially through the blurred vision of my eyes overflowing with tears, but it had to be seen. Suicide caused by bullying, especially for gay teens, is a real thing. It’s serious, and it’s happening, and it’s now. it needs to be stopped. Max Adler deserves an award for this performance alone, let alone his others, for its unfailing authenticity and emotional depth.
what really hit me though about this episode was how real it all seemed idk
i know glee isn’t a perfect show, but cast members like max adler and chris colfer just convey these storylines so well that it breaks my heart. it’s been like an hour since i finished the episode and i’m still sick to my stomach.
Like, the idea that this wasn’t just a flagrant, on-a-whim attempt to kill himself, but that he actually thought about it, deliberated, planned it even. He went to the trouble to take out a suit and carefully put it on. Even if he was going to end it, he wanted to be seen at his best.